You're a firework!!

"Do you ever feel like a plastic bag, drifting through the wind wanting to start again. Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin, like a house of cards. One blow from caving in. Do you ever feel already buried deep. Six feet under scream But no one seems to hear a thing." (Katy Perry, Firework)

Everyday waking up to a loveless world. A world which my place isn't found. Feeling like I'm drifting along in the wind with no direction what so ever. Or even with my screams for some answers, they are never heard. I feel as if I am buried deep within the earth. Why does it matter? Why do I need to feel this way? Simply paper thin. This is how I've felt for a big part of my life and how many people still feel. This is how I feel at times in my life even now. I try to love but I feel as if I get left, I try to be that person whom is happy and joyful but still I feel empty and lost.

"You just gotta ignite the light. And let it shine. Just own the night. Like the fourth of July" (Katy Perry, Firework)

We all go through the "dark night" of life. It seems that at times life is nothing but at dark night within itself so why try to fight it? Why try to make something more then what we know it out to be? But the trick is to simply own the night by accepting the darkness within it. These days which no one understands us, these days where life seems to keep on handing us one hard situation after another. Simply own the night, make the night as truthful as it is. And within that owning and only then will we be able to shine and within that shine the night will be ignited. Within the realization and only then can the night be ignited like the Fourth of July.

"Cause baby you're a firework. Come on show' em what you're worth. Make'em go "Oh, oh, oh! As you shoot across the sky" (Katy Perry, Firework)

This light, the one that you ask of the world will never be found within the world. This light that will ignite the dark skies of life will never be caught within this fear based world that we live in. But as the realization becomes full circle and once we come to the fact that there is nowhere outside of us that the light is located, then and only then should we look within. And with that one simple gaze a shine will begin which will ignite those dark skies like never before.

"You don't have to feel like a waste of space. You're original, cannot be replaced. If you only know what the future holds. After a hurricane comes a rainbow. Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed. So you could open one that leads you to the perfect room" (Katy Perry, Firework)

Your reason on this earth is a reason that literally holds the universe in place, this is how important you are. You have to know that you are as much apart of this universe as the universe itself and their would be no universe if not for you. You are like a unique piece to a very large puzzle, this puzzle could never be complete without you. This puzzle IS the universe so never believe that your purpose is a purposeless one. Then; within that realization you may still wonder that if you are as important as I've just stated why so many hurricanes are occurring within your life. You may wonder why you can't seem to get this task call life right. Always remember, after EVERY hurricane comes a rainbow. This rainbow of yours will be bright and colorful, so full of joy, so full of good feelings. Full of strength and vigor. Full of all the opportunities that life can hand you. The storms of life do have a purpose, they are there to give you strength, and with this strength comes energy and joy. You will have wisdom and knowledge that you may not have gained if you hadn't gone through some of the hurricanes and storms of life. Because of some storms that I've personally gone through I am a more loving person and I am stronger as well so never curse the storms because rainbows are coming up next.

Doors in life simply may not open because they simply don't lead to the best rooms for you. Life has many doors and one may wish they knew which one to go through. Remember, the door to the room that will lead you to straight euphoria will open but it may be masked by other doors. Never stop believing in yourself. Know that you have it all with you and know that once you find that perfect place within life it will invite you in with open arms.

"Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow. And when it's time, you'll know"(Katy Perry, Firework)

The knowing will be within the joys of the realizing. Never lose faith in Love, happiness or yourself.

"Boom, boom, boom. Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon. It's always been inside of YOU, YOU, YOU and now it's time to let it through" (Katy Perry, Firework)

Never stop believing in YOU. You are a firework so allow your colors to bust. No matter how strange, weird or dumb others may view you as. No matter of they don't agree with your sexual preference, your way of living and the things YOU believe in it doesn't matter because they don't control your destiny. Be who you are, stay real and true to your cause, love yourself and give love out FREELY. Be that firework that this world needs. Be the one to ignite a light that is so bright that it will blind all of the lies and thieves. Let it shine, let it gleam because this world needs that light and this world needs YOU.

So now the day comes when you need to be self empowered. Lets do this the true way, lets be that light. Lets explode and lets radiate that happiness and joy that lies within. You are brighter then the moon and this light has been inside of you since the day you were born. You deserve all out happiness and joy. You are worthy, you are kings and queens, you are children of the most High and you are FIREWORKS!

"Baby you're a firework. Come on let your colors burst. Make'em go Oh , oh, oh! You're gonna leave'em all in awe-awe-awe!!!" (Katy Perry, Firework)

Namaste

Who Am I?

"Who am I" He said before he gave way to the truth of the matter. "Why have you done such a thing to me? To ask me to do those things which don't bring me joy?" To sit in a rooom and be told that I need to work hard all my life? To be told that I ned to obtain a cetain grade average to be accepted as intelligent?

But there is a whole world within me waiting to be born. I may not enjoy your schools and your classes and I may not understand why you fight so hard to have me take a certain path. Because my path was laid out before me; even before I came into this physical format. So why do you try and fit me in a mold? I am just not cookie cutter enough to go there. I don't belong and if this is the way of he world then why am I even a part of it? Why don't you just allow me to choose for my liking? Why not ask me what path I wold like to take? The world needs this shine which I am holding within, but you told me not to let it out because you fear that it may not be accepted. why do you care if I take my own path or not in life? I have to wake up every morning and face my life not yours. And I was implanted a want before I was even told what to do. I know why I am but now I am confused. You ask me to be something that I just am not. You tell me that if I don't conform then I could be then end of my own legacy. But what legacy am I to uphold? One that was told to me or the one that I was truly TOLD? The one that I was TOLD was relayed to me by something far more advanced than anything you could think up in your own intellect. Why must I shed the tears of my forefathers when they have fought for my freedom? My freedom to think chose and be. Who am I to this world? And if the world had its say it wold say "I am nothing because I simply don't see it that way"

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So if you are in a position as such don't pay the world any mind. You know who you are? You are divine, a god of all gods, a son, a daughter, and a child of the most high. You are love, you are loved and you are the one who decides what is to be within your life. Make the decision of Love and live life to the fullest!!!

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Namaste

Arguing is a foolish act!

To come to a realization of an insight is something great. I've just stumbled on one and I think I will share it. The beginning of the insight came from me taking part in the most foolish act that anyone could take part in, arguing.

About a month ago I was having a discussion with an individual about religion and spiritually. While this individual spoke for one reason or another I felt obligated to let him know about aspects of what he was saying which I simply didn't agree with. From that I became a target, I was asked questions and every time I stated my disagreeing with a view point I was argued at. I then felt it within myself (my ego) to simply defend my belief's. As I did this, I never discredited the person's belief's to whom I spoke to, I simply told him that I simply didn't see it the way he did. I even said that I could be wrong in what I feel and believe but the fact of a matter does remains; I am a stronger, wiser, more loving, more respecting, more forgiving, and more Godlier person because of the way I think and because of the things I believe in. I am an open minded person that takes insight from all types of spiritual practices and sciences and I love every bit of it. I am pretty humble when it comes to other people's belief's and I never try to convert someone so that they will see things exactly the way I do. I just enjoy spreading self empowerment and love because I see the oneness and I believe in happiness. One may say that there isn't really anything wrong with me speaking up for what I believe when it comes to me. I mean, I didn't try to convert the guy so that he would see things my way, I even told him to keep up his spiritual practice but I was very, very wrong in the way I went about the whole situation.

As soon as I spoke to discredit this person's belief's I did a very, unGodlike, unlove like, egoic thing. I mean it really doesn't matter if anyone sees things the way I do in its exact form. I actually like it better that way. Its the only way I can learn new things from others. Someone has to see things differently then me and I have to realize that I could be wrong in my beliefs and simply keep quiet.

Truth is truth regardless of what me or anyone else says. Does a person need to defend the fact that a baby is young? Does anyone need to defend the fact that we live on planet earth? NO, because truth will be truth regardless. True is to vast, it is to REAL and it doesn't need anyone to defend it. There is another truth too, one the evaded me when I had this conversation. I believe what I believe because as of now it is truth to me and it has helped me in life. Why defend this? Why even speak on it? I enjoy helping others. I want to see people happy, I want to see joy in every one's face that I come across and a lot of times in order to get that I need to throw my believes in the background. If they are truth they will be true when the conversation is over. If they are helping me in life then they will continue to. I really don't need to defend any of this. I really don't

I was called things that I didn't appreciate within this conversation and I was wrong for responding to them. When I responded, I made those things real. I was called "not of God" and in that moment in time I wasn't of God at all. This person has a real passion for his beliefs and he gains this joy in his eyes when he speaks on it. That right there should have been enough for me to keep my month shut. I should have simply allowed him to talk and just agreed and spoke on things that I did agree with. Like I said, if my belief's are truth, they would have been truth regardless of what I could or would say.

Today when a similar conversation arose I kept quiet. I allowed this person to gain his joy when he spoke on his beliefs and I agreed with him when he truly said things that I agreed with. When he questioned me I did say that I didn't agree but quickly said that I didn't do as much research on the subject as he did so I really had no right to speak on the subject. I left it at that and things turned out a lot better. A person was within the happy zone and I played a part in it. This person was beaming with the love of God and I allowed him to beam. I even told him that I would look into some of the stuff he spoke of. When I do get around to looking into these things, I will do it with love in my heart and an open mind. I will not look into it in order to discredit this person's beliefs in any way. I will not ever, ever, look into or try and learn anything for the sheer purpose of discrediting any one's religion, philosophies, belief's or whatever. I will never have it in me to defend one belief over the other because I simply will not prepare myself for that. I won't do that for my ego; I will not glorify it anymore. Insight can come from foolish acts so I believe that a person who allows another to do something foolish is a loving person. Why deny them of that life lesson? Why have them weaker then they would have been in the first place? My sheer purpose is to love and to enjoy life. To serve God by serving the Love that is within me and allowing it to shine. Anyone who ever participates in an argument for any reason is a fool in the first power. This life lesson is actually something I knew already but its good to gain insights none the less. Real is real regardless, allow, love, stay quiet so that you may learn and always know that we are all One in this thing called love.

Namaste

Sky-Circles

"The way of love is not a subtle argument. The door there is devastation. Birds make great sky-circles of their freedom. How do they learn that? They fall, and falling they're given wings"

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If its an argument, whether be subtle or prodigious; it will still allow the door to devastation to remain at hand. What does it take for us to come to a potent realization of where and how to find that way which is love. Is it to tell our loved ones that they may fail at what they choose to do? Is it to sit and become the greatest critic that our loved ones have encountered? For that to occur we would have to fear for our loved ones and that for love, just can't be so. You can't "dark" for "light" so in the same token you really can't "fear" for your "love". To allow our loved ones to fall and then as they come to, lend a helping hand is to allow them to gain their own wings so that they can fly. This is the circle in the sky. Flight takes form in the sky, not the ground. We have to allow our loved ones to go into the sky so that they may gain their wings. They may fall and fall but don't fear that they will hit ground and become damaged. Because if they are not allow to gain some sky, then they will never, ever take flight. We were meant to fly like eagles, not swak in the mud like a chicken. We were meant to sore among the sky and allow that fresh air to brush against our faces. To enjoy that freedom, that exhilaration, now that my friend is LIFE. To live means to fly, to love means to allow, to fall means to gain wings. Its all a sky circle of events which need to take place within the sky. Allow, encourage then if needed freely give that helping hand without the egoic criticising. Now that is something that love is, love is EMPOWERING and fear is DISABLING. Love is flight and fear keeps us grounded. Go into the sky, take that flight and if you begin to fall I have faith that you will be given your wings.

Namaste

Lets Love For 2011

The New Year is a pond us and for a great resolution we should simply be more loving. Lets enjoy each other and love others even if the other doesn't made decisions that we may understand. Lets realize that love is the answer to all of our problems, love is the solution to all of our issues and love is the way to happiness. Lets love instead of judging. Lets not push our rules and ways on others, lets not look down on others because they don't agree with the way we perceive things. Whether be republican or democrat, Christian, Muslim or atheist. Whether be gay or straight, man or woman, black or white, son or daughter, we all have something in common and that thing is love. It is something that lives within each and every one of us and it isn't hard to come in contact with. Lets help bring the loving aspect of each other out instead of the fear. Lets become more humble, reverent and accepting. If one is loved one is trusted. If one is loved one is encourage. If one is loved one is accepted on an unconditional level. Its okay if you don't agree with everything that I utter but know that I still want to be loved. If one judges on the basis of fear then that individual is driven by that very fear. So for this New Year, lets simply love. Love is empowering and fear is disabling. Lets love and lets take a chance for happiness. Why dwell in the known? Why stay in that same place? Why not grow and evolve to the next and better you? Look within always. Never follow someone blindly and don't expect some book, person or TV show to give you all of the answers to life. Know that if you desire something within live and you have a knowing that the desire will manifest the universe is conspiring in your favor to make that desire so.

Within this year I've gone through alot of changes. I've had scares that would make me think my life would end as I knew it. I've had loses that would make me think that God Herself was against me but at the end of the day it was love that brought me out of those dark pits. For 2011 I plan on becoming more patient with others, more understanding, and less egoic. No more do I have anything to prove, no more will I sit and not radiate all that I am. No more will I play foolish games in the name of fear, no more.

If you want something, go and get it. Don't let fear stop you. If you desire a certain relationship or certain individuals in your life go and make it so. Don't allow fear to hinder this. Fear will turn life into literal hell if it is allowed to run things. So for 2011 I want all to live from love and not fear. Lets make love so; do your best and never give up. Simply radiate love for this new year. For a while I was without a computer but since I have one now I will be writing on this blog more often. I am looking forward to going deep within then writing and sharing. So with love and joy I am wishing all a great New Year to come and always know that we are all ONE.

Namaste

Moon River

Moon River, wider than a mile....I'm crossing you in style some day.

Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker, wherever you're going I'm going your way.

Two drifters off to see the world..... There's such a lot of world to see.

We're after the same rainbow's end-- waiting 'round the bend....my huckleberry friend, Moon River.... and me. (From the song Moonriver)

In this world of strife and ambition there is a moon river that we all desire to see and cross. Its full of our dreams and aspirations, its full of our opportunities to be dream makers and heart breakers for all who can't seem to realize the true aspects of life which are of love, change and growth. To understand that my life is of love and the joy of it is located in this moon river is a great understanding to posses.

Within this moon river is where my dreams are, I drift off into these waters within my mind and I envision my beloved, we're drifting towards our dreams not having a care in the world. This moon river is what I envision when I feel a little down. Instead of facing the ground I look up towards the moon and I know that when I do take flight I will reach it. I can walk its surface and as I walk I'll reach this river then I will be able to cross it with all its dreams and joy. After this river is crossed I will be able to travel the planet below as I see fit with just not a care in the world; with me as I travel my beloved will be. My beloved and I both want to reach the same rainbows end because its an end which dictates a true beginning for us both which is of nothing but love. Also, the beginning of a dream as well. This river may seem unattainable but then as I invite my beloved to travel this river with me we both know that we can attain and achieve anything that we put our minds and our hearts to.

Moon river, waitin round the bend...my huckleberry friend and I.

Its time for us to see.....

everything we dream, we're just a little team, dreaming of the dreams.... that... we could never..... forget.

Moon river, its time for us to go, please be with me the whole way there.

When we envision.... our love, nothing but the wind, my huckleberry friend. waiting for no end, this... river's... the dream

Just drift into the river and allow the love that you have within you to flow as it may.Its filled with the dreams and aspirations that we all seem to keep bottled up within us at one point or another. Dream like a child and never let it end; never become to serious about life. Just dream, love and within that love and dream, fly. Fly so that you may reach the moon river of your dreams. Then as you cross this river never allow that feeling that you've gained to leave you. Remain as a child; dream, then achieve. No matter how silly the dream may seem to others. KEEP IT ALIVE!

Namaste

Spilling of words

What is located below is literally a spilling of words. Three poems with no names has spilled out of my intellect waiting to be shared. I don't know what any of them would mean and I don't even know if they would make any kind of since to anyone who would read them. But as I sat here in this chair in front of this computer on this Sunday evening something occurred with me. These words came through me and as it occurred I just stayed with the flow of it all. I began to write without a purpose, I wrote and I wrote and when I thought I was done I wrote some more. So with that being said I do hope you enjoy. I don't know if anything said will offend anyone but if anyone who comes across this knows me personally, they would know that I only hope to spread love to all. I want all to be a self expression of what they feel is true to themselves. I don't even know if I agree with every single word or message that is written in the poems below but just know that I did enjoy writing them, don't take anything said to heart, look within as you read and keep an open mind. ENJOY THE SPILLING OF WORDS! There was no insightful point to these writings, I didn't have an aim to share as I usually do when I post blogs but I believe something will unfold within each person as they read these three poems.........
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Whether you are a sinner or saint, a killer or lover of life, teller of truth or lies, whether you bask in the light or skulk in the darkness, it doesn’t matter because in reality you are all the all. If you can’t claim yourself a sinner you will never be a saint. If you can’t claim yourself a killer you could never be a lover of life. If you can’t claim yourself a liar, you will never know what its like to tell the truth. Contrast is within; any perception of reality comes from within as well. Nothing is separate or outside of our true being. Nothing comes into this world that doesn’t first come through you. If you are able to perceive a person being murdered then you are able and willing if your situation was as such to murder too. So why do you judge the sinner but praise the saint? Why would you judge the branch but praise the twinge when they are from the same tree? Open up and see, realize and recognize. You are everything that you see and everything that you experience because life in itself is an experience. With all of this known, then comes the illusion. Sinning and saintliness is an illusion. Being an Ender of life or lover of life is an illusion. Light and darkness is an illusion. They are but labels that the ego uses to define a moment in the illusion called time so that it may understand and maybe gain control. Even so and as a matter of fact, control is an illusion too. But there is one thing that remains and this one element is the only factual aspect within the whole of the universe. Now brace yourself because whatever you believed before, know that LOVE is all that exist. Not the act of being a “lover of life” but LOVE and LOVE alone. We live to be happy and that can only come from and through LOVE. Everything else that you have adapted yourself worth to is worth nothing, they are illusions. So realize that all of those illusions which I have named are being made manifest by and through you and LOVE is the only truth. Through the truth of LOVE peace will find you and also, you will realize and then become WHOLE.

You think you are better then me because you are Christian and I am not? You think you will make it to heaven without me because you belong to Islam and I don’t? Or do you think that you are more so on a higher level of consciousness because you choose not to believe in that “myth” called God and I do? Well, let me tell you something Christian man, let me set the records straight for you Muslim woman, let me show you something that is more “solid” then what you science can prove mister Atheist. If life was a boat, the three of you would be in it together and have an oar each. You would be rowing together through the same waters and not even know it. You boast that your way is better then mine, you claim that you are part of the chosen; you feel that I am a fool for having faith in God. But all along and no matter how much you all fight, know that you are fighting for an illusion in your efforts. If you aren’t fighting for LOVE then you fight for nothing. Nothing else exists but LOVE. The wind blows through the trees with the intent of love. The sun shines down on the earth with the intent of love. The birds sore through the sky with the intent of love, the lungs take in air with the intent of love. So as you claim being a Christian is of love but then you say that the Muslim is going to hell. And you over there, you want to express the peaceful wisdom of the last prophet but deep within you feel that the “infidels” must die. So you say that you’ve help to extend human life with all of your scientific discoveries but something in you wishes that all of them bible thumping, fairytale believing fools would walk off of a cliff and just get out of the way. What is wrong with this picture? Knowing that you want to be loved, when you feel that a lover has betrayed you the three of you feel the same way. When you feel that a loved one’s life is being threatened, the three of you want to protect them in the same. When you feel that you are about to lose the love of your lives, the three of you try to cling, just as you are, the three of you are all the same. But no matter how many scriptures you can recite, no matter how well you feel you know the Quran, no matter how many scientific formulas you know, just know this, without love you would be no more. You feel that you are special and you feel that you have found the way. But in finding the way you have lost yourself. If you don’t know how to look at yourself and then look within yourself you will never find true love and you will continue to search. Why search for something and continue to look outside when everything you need is within? You will never be content, you will never be happy and you will never find peace. Love is the way period and love in its truest form is located within your hearts. Come to that realization then also realize that you, the atheist, the Muslim and the Christian are One. Realize it now before you kill yourselves for the hope of maintaining an illusion. ONLY LOVE EXIST!

Between you and me there is an ocean. It is a vast body of water that separates my truth from yours. I am in a state of love, but this ocean stands as is, ready to erupt into a prodigious wave ready to crash down on your beauty and your grace. It feels like you are miles away and I miss you so much. My heart aches because of this ocean; it makes me want to kill myself. I don’t feel as if life is worth this, being so far away from you. I want to touch you, caress you and feel you from within. But this damn ocean is too vast and I don’t know how to swim. I wish I could drink these evil waters so that I am able to come to you. Or maybe I could do like Moses and put a part in these waters so that I could start and then continue to walk. But it was the faith that Moses used to have his way meant. To free God’s people it took the kind of faith that could make oceans part. This is the insight, the lesson to be healed and I know that even though it seems as if these damned waters would forever keep us apart. The faith that I have in our love will make them split for us. So as I wait for you, I do maintain my faith. I have faith in this love for you, as strong as it may be. I feel as if it will swallow me whole at any moment but so what because I do condone. I would call on the pain and yell for the suffering if this is what it takes to be with my beloved. And as I just said, the soothing sound of your voice is all I ask for. Just one more moment with you is all I desire. I love you like a fire which will engulf my world completely. Please come back to me. Please, I would walk on hot coals for you. And then that is when it occurred. After listening to all of the sad love songs and shedding all of the tears I come to realize that the waters which separate us also keep us as One. For all it is worth, we are made of these waters. They have parted a walkway for us but that wasn’t even necessary. They have been made in a way for the drinking but why would I care? You and I are One within these waters. The waters represent the mind and the chasm which they are in represents the lies. But love is like flight and with that we are reached. This love that I possess connects me with you more intimately and our fates are intertwined. We are these waters and with that, we are LOVE! I love you, I await you and I know that your essence is found within my heart. As soon as I look to my heart, my wait will be no more and you will be with me for ever so.

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So there you have it, a spilling of words

Namaste